After a life of high achievement and striving for perfection, Paula is flung into a whole new chapter, where nothing seems to go right, her health collapses, she is unable to work and the depth of her depression finds her standing close to an edge from which there is no return.



Amidst the fight, struggle and self-annihilation, Paula begins to see herself and the world through a new inner sight, just like the beautiful lotus flower, which grows up out of the mud, so too, may wisdom and grace arise from the murky depths of our greatest despair. Here in, are some glimpses of insight and wisdom from Paula’s unravelling and unfolding.